New Year's Eve, 2019, 3 am.

I'm lying in bed, asking myself some hard questions. Two months earlier, I shattered my leg in a freak accident that turned everything upside down. Four surgeries later, I still couldn't walk. I’d just married the love of my life, but now we were staring at real financial uncertainty. My work in live production meant being on-site, making things happen. Suddenly, I couldn’t do any of it.

It wasn’t just the injury that caused me to ask myself hard questions. That night, I realized my whole life wasn’t where I wanted it to be. I’d had success, but my choices had left us vulnerable. My only backup plan was a shrinking savings account.

3AM Questions

That night, I started asking myself the biggest questions I’d ever asked:

Why do I do what I do? Is this really what I want for my life? Am I using my skills in the way I was meant to?

I began to see how many of my choices weren’t really mine. The limiting beliefs and stories I’d accepted about my life’s potential had been quietly calling the shots. Even after years of psychological exploration, I could see how much “old programming” had shaped my life. A lot of it came from the environment I grew up in, family patterns and assumptions about life I never really questioned.

That night marked the start of a search for something deeper and more honest. I wanted to find the real me under all the layers of programming, and see what I could do if I learned how to rewrite those scripts.

When the World Hit Pause

In March 2020, my surgeons finally cleared me to walk again. That same week, Covid hit, and the world stopped. Ironically, I didn’t feel disappointed. The accident had already forced me to slow down. Now, the world was slowing down too.

It felt like the universe was telling me: keep digging.

So I kept at it, looking at the big questions about meaning, purpose, and the unique set of skills God gave me.

Loss, and an Even Deeper Why

That fall, my younger brother tragically passed away. His self-destructive choices caught up to him, and I was left with grief and questions. Did the scripts running his life ultimately cause his death? What pain, what hidden stories, had pushed him to make those choices?

And what scripts were running in my own life?

The answer was uncomfortably clear. The limited results in my life were coming from subconscious programming, which was putting limits in areas of my life I didn’t want.

Finding Help, Doing the Work

A month after losing my brother, I joined a program focused on uncovering and rewriting the self-limiting beliefs buried deep in my subconscious. The work was rooted in kriya yoga, using breath to relax and open the mind. This hybrid approach also combined ancient Vedic scriptures and modern psychology to help people work through trauma, self-limiting beliefs, and subconscious programming holding them back.

The work was intense. I got in touch with the scripts that were running my life. I was challenged with exercises that pushed me out of my comfort zone, forced me to look at my patterns, and helped me break free from the self-fulfilling prophecies that were keeping my life limited.

Breaking Free

That year, I made a commitment to myself: to keep going deeper, to undo the old programming, and to stop living under ceilings I didn’t choose.

The biggest gift from all of this? Freedom. Freedom to show up as my true self and focus my energy on making a difference for others. Instead of staying stuck in old patterns, I was able to channel my life and creativity into something bigger than myself—something that allowed me to contribute to the world in ways I couldn’t before. That opened doors I didn’t even know were there.

After decades of helping companies tell their stories in live production, I realized that my newfound freedom opened up even bigger possibilities, not just for my career and my family, but for the ways I could help others. I got into live production because it was a natural fit for how I see the world and what I do best. With this new personal growth, it felt like everything I’d learned professionally was finally coming together for a greater purpose. It gave me the foundation to build a platform where people could grow their business and impact by showing up as their real selves, expressing themselves authentically, and finding their voice.

In the process, it’s created opportunities not just for me and my family, but for everyone involved. That’s where “Your Purpose Is Your Power” came from—not as a slogan, but as a truth I had to learn the hard way.

What I Want for You

Most of us are living with invisible barriers we never asked for, stories and old programs that keep us from showing up fully in our relationships, at work, and even with ourselves.

If you ever find yourself up at 3 a.m., wrestling with those big questions about what’s driving you, maybe it’s time to look under the hood. See which old stories or programming you’re living, and start rewriting the ones that don’t serve you.